This is a 90210 rant (Yes, I know it's 4am.. I can't sleep.. This is all I could think about...) *sighs*

(Only those who watch the show can understand this post...)

Silver has always been my favorite character. As the show progresses, we can see the changes in her. She had become mature. Despite all the hatred she felt from her past, she still strives to become the best person. At times, she still feels scared or unsure, but will eventually get over it because of the support from her sister, friends and her boyfriend.

I also admire Dixon, Silver's boyfriend, for staying with Silver and sticking up for her especially in times when she really needed support. Silver can be difficult sometimes, but Dixon never left her side and gives her everything that's best.

Both Dixon and Silver sometimes encounter problems that affect their relationship. An example of this is in season 1, episode 23, during their Prom.

Despite Silver's strong belief against Prom, she still went because she promised Dixon that she'd go with him. She knows that Dixon badly wants to go and she doesn't want to disappoint her boyfriend so she agreed to go. On the day itself, they both tried their best to enjoy. Somehow, Dixon won Prom King and Silver won Prom Queen. Dixon was ecstatic that he won but as for Silver, she was at first very surprise. As she went up the stage to claim her prize, she remembers something. She remembered how much she hated prom. She remembered her strong belief against it. So, she stood in front of everyone and told all of them how she felt and declined her award. She said something about not wanting to be a Monkey Prom Addict Zombie (Something like that... I forgot what she said exactly).

Silver's confidence to fight for what she believed in even if it means going against the majority is very admirable. But when she said her speech, she had hurt someone-- Dixon. Though it was not the intention, Silver offended Dixon. Dixon felt that the speech was against him.

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I wasn't able to finish watching the episode so I don't really know what happened with Silver and Dixon in the end. All I know is that "Dixon" is so hurt with what "Silver" had said. Now, "he" doesn't know how to react and prefers to "not deal with it for now..." I know that "Dixon" is scared of losing "Silver" but now is not a good time to fix things.

New Term Resolution

Nakakalungkot isipin sapagkat nakakuha ako ng mga mabababang marka para sa terminong ito. Para sa susunod na termino, determinado akong mabawi ang kalunos-lunos na sinapit ng aking acads.

Ito ay ilan sa aking nilistang gabay upang makakuha ng matataas na marka sa susunod na termino:

1. Umuwi ng maaga. Bawal nang tumambay sa school. Pagkatapos ng klase, diretso bahay.

2. Matulog ng maaga. Tapusin ka-agad ang lahat ng trabaho upang hindi abutin ng madaling araw.

3. Bawal nang maglaro ng Pet Society, Restaurant City o Country Stories. Maaaring mag-plurk, pero pang-maintain lang ng karma.

4. Iwasan ang pagpasok tuwing Biyernes. Kung kaya gawin ang trabaho sa bahay, 'wag na pumasok. Aksaya lamang iyon ng gas at effort. Friday is homework/ drafts time.

5. "Idle time is never a good time." I should keep myself busy. No slacking off allowed!

Well, 'yun pa lang naman naiisip ako. Basta ACADS ang number 1 priority ko. Bahala na social life ko. As for my friends, I know they will understand kahit na magpapaka-cave man muna ako ng isang termino.

I also promise to do my *job*. Sisimulan ko na nga ngayong bakasyon para hindi na abala pagdating ng pasukin. *wink*

'Yun lang naman. Bawal na magka-love life!!! Sobrang sagabal 'yun sa acads at org!!! LOVE YOURSELF 1ST BEFORE LOVING OTHERS! :D TIIS-TIIS LANG. SANA HINDI MA-TEMPT! :) KUNG SIYA TALAGA ANG PARA SA AKIN, MAGHIHINTAY SIYA HANGGANG SA TINGIN KO STABLE NA AKO. :P

'Yun lang. Sana matupad ko lahat 'yan. :S

Paalam sweetdyman!

sweetdyman is annoyed

sweetdyman hates negative feelings

sweetdyman loves the idea of deleting her Plurk account

After 8 months, 938 plurks, 1228 profile views and 9717 plurk replies, I will finally say goodbye to my sweetdyman account in Plurk. I do not have the heart to delete my account because it has so much memories in it so I've decided to just freeze my 91.83 karma for it to be preserved.

As much as I love plurking, I felt the need to stop. I have come to realize that it is rather disruptive of relationships due to miscommunication and misunderstanding.

Dapat mga ka-plurk mo lang ay 'yung mga TUNAY na nakaka-intindi at nakakakilala sayo. Mahirap na talaga lalo na ngayon. TSKTSK...

Kakainin na ako ng deadline!

Nandito ako ngayon sa University Library. Inaasikaso ko ngayon ang aking drafts. Kakatapos ko lamang i-revise ang isa kong draft at ngayon, tinatamad na ako simulan ang isa ko pa. Haayy... Dapat noong isang linggo ko pa ito ipinasa ngunit masyado akong nag-procrastinate. Ayan tuloy, kakainin na ako ng deadline!

Ewan ko ba. Ngayong buwan lamang ako nagkaganito. Aminado ako, ilang beses na akong late magpasa ng draft noon pero ngayon siguro exagge na..... kasi bukas na ang deadline ko pero hindi pa rin ako nakakaramdam ng panic! Ahahaha! Ewan ko talaga. Nawalan na ako ng gana. Kagaya ngayon, sa halip na tapusin ko ang isa ko pang draft, mas pinili ko pang magsulat sa walang kwentang blog na ito. Haayy...

Sawa na ako...

Gusto ko mag-mura! Gusto ko magalit! PERO... wala eh... Wala akong magawa kundi magmukmok at manahimik na lamang.

Bakit kailangan nalang ganito lagi? BAKIT WALA KANG TIWALA SA'KIN?

--ayyy oo nga pala. Hindi ko pa napapatunayan sarili ko. Mahina ako. Hindi ko kaya sarili ko. Lagi na lamang kitang binibigo. LAGI NALANG KITA DINADALHAN NG KAHIHIYAN! OO WALA NA AKONG GINAWANG TAMA! WALA! WALA! Wala....... Wala akong karapatan kuwestyunin ang rehas na nakapalibot sa buong katauhan ko..... Wala!!!!!

Sige mas maniwala ka pa sa CHISMIS............................

U.B.E. #1

Sa wakas natuloy na rin ang matagal nang ina-asam ni Kuya Al James na Ultimate Bonding Experience (UBE).

Hindi nakasama si Art pero okay lang kasi nahila naman namin si Ate Joca! :D First time niya sa Town! *woot*

Nanuod muna kami ng Drag Me To Hell. Comedy, romance, suspense, horror.... lahat na!!! HEHEHE! :-P Masaya naman kahit medyo korny nga. HAHA! Ayyy, kahit paano, napasigaw naman kaming tatlo eh. HAHAHA!

Pagkatapos namin manuod ng sine, naisipan naming kumain na. Pinili ko ang kainang Brooklyn Pizza sapagkat hindi pa sila nakakain dun. Mmmm... One word: BUSOG. :)


Sobra akong natuwa at na-touch na rin. Imagine, all the trouble they went through para lang makapuntang Town when they could just have went to Glo or MOA (with Kuya Justin & Matt). :)) I FEEL SO SPECIAL. (Laki na ulo) HAHAHA! But seriously, thank you guys! Sana maulit 'to! :) Love you both!

Miyerkules- a(h1n1) day! :P

1. Gumising ng maaga kahit puyat sapagkat may 8am class.

2. Enjoy ang first class (intoeco). My class in intoeco serves as a "breather" for me. Medyo masusuka ko na 'yung mga readings ko sa ibang klase ko eh. HAHAHA! How ironic sapagkat I left CBE kasi masusuka ko na 'yung math! Pero tignan mo ako ngayong nasa CLA na ako, nagmamaka-awa na akong magka-math subject. Indeed, the grass will always be greener on the other side.

3. I was lucky I had freecut on my next subject kasi dumating bigla si cuz Ash. I had lunch with her and some of our friends. Hmmpp.. Ayaw maniwala nung iba na freecut talaga ako. TSE! :P

4. After that, I was suppose to study for my quiz in PHILOPE but instead, I let my sissy drag me all the way to Andrew to look for our interviewee, only to find out that our said interviewee doesn't report to DLSU yet.

5. Then, bumalik na kaming main. Then I headed to the conservatory to "study" with Pawie and Art. Ate Joca and Matt was there too, studying/ plurking.

6. EXAM TIME. No comment. I did my best considering I was not able to study.

7. Thank you for the chocolates kuya AJ!

8. EB meeting/ storyboard for A-- CANCELLED! Wala pa kami sa kalagitnaan ng meeting, eh biglang pinatawag si Ate Susan. Ayun. BOOM. AH1N1 virus confirmed na mayroon ang isang DLSU student.

9. Kaguluhan sa office. Maligalig talaga ang aking APPmates.

10. Umuwi. The end.

3 na raw cases ng A(H1N1) sa loob ng Pamantasan. Sana talaga hindi pa ito dumami. Medyo worried na talaga ako. Panginoon, gabayan mo kami!

High School Musical 3

Gabriella to Troy: I wish it would all just stop... *sigh* Or atleast slow down...

Ewan "HOTNESS" Mcgregor

Father, forgive me for I have sinned. *wink*

Ewan McGregor plays Camerlengo Carlo Ventresca in the recent film, Angels & Demons.

MULAT

Managing Uniting Leading Achieving Transforming

A Transformative Leadership and Management in the Lasallian Student Publications

May 14-16, 2009

Grand Villa Resort and Butterfly Centre

Para sa akin, ito ang ibig sabihin ng MULAT:

Masaya- Oo, sobra akong nag-enjoy. :) Mega bonding with APP peeps tapos I met other people pa from the other publications. Sobrang thankful ako na nabigyan ako ng ganitong pagkakataon. :)

Understand- Mas naiintindihan ko na ang mga bagay-bagay. :) May mga realizations din ako, ngunit hindi ko nalang ilalathala rito kung anu-ano iyon sapagkat napag-isipan kong sa akin na lamang iyon.

Lead- DUH. Leadership training kaya ito. :P Infairness, marami akong natutunan sa mga seminar at talks. :))

Accomplish- KAILANGAN ma-accomplish ang mga tasks.

Tiis- 9am-11:30pm na LECTURE. 'nuff said. :))


Ang Pahayagang Plaridel: JOLOGS (pero FUN and BIBO naman! :P)The Lasallian: SOSYALGreen and White: NORMALMalate: DISTURBEDAhahaha! I'm proud to belong to the "JOLOGS" publication. :)


Sosyal ang aming room. May TV, landline phone, aircon (with remote control), dim lighting, free shampoo, conditioner, soap, lotion, toothpaste, toothbrush, bottled mineral water and towel! :D GREPA NO MORE! :)) Well, 1500 a night per person daw eh, mahal 'no? Pero worth it naman. :D Hindi siya super duper high class, pero (as students) it will do. :D Thank you to all La Salle (main) students! Kayo gumastos ng bakasyon namin! AHAHAHA! :D


FUSCHIA TEAMMay ibang parts na sumablay kami... But no worries... :) Ang importante ay ang friendship na nabuo namin. Shout out to ASHA! :D Salamat sa pagturo sakin nung.... well alam mo na kung ano tinuro mo sakin. *wink* THANK YOU RIN KAY JUSTIN-- ang aking kadamay sa "kalbaryong" aking dinatnan... Bwahahaha! I hope to see both of you soon. :)


BALITA SUPREMEAng pinaka-unang pamilya ko sa APP.

Just like in HS :P

YOU CAN'T BE BEST FRIENDS WITH EVERYONE...

Nakakalungkot lang talaga kasi minsan ko din inakala na mabuti kaming magkakaibigan... But as usual, I thought wrong. :(

I don't know if I should worry kasi bigla nalang siyang naging cold. Am I being to paranoid? I guess, I am just concerned.

Haaayy... I guess, I should just shrug this off. I'm sure she'll come around someday-- hopefully. I really do care for her. If something is wrong, I hope to fix it. :o

Love is in the air!

your-song-mo-ment | yôr-sông-ˈmō-mənt | noun be inspired with an intense but short-lived passion or admiration; kilig moments

OKAY. Joketime lang namin ni Martin yan. HAHAHA! Kasi naman, I was making kwento to him about the first I met Andre (NOT HIS REAL NAME) and some other "kilig moments" stuff. Martin, being his pilyo self, suddenly teased me na parang episode lang ng Your Song, a tanghali tapat cheesy teleserye ng ABSCBN. RAWR. I ignored the hirit at first pero ang catchy masyado, so now part na siya ng linggo namin. RAWR!

Ayun, I want to share all my kilig moments sa blog na 'to pero it's better of kept secret or at least kept safely sa archives ni Martin (which I think he will use as blackmail to me in the future boo!).

Sabaw, it's 3am... I have to wake up early for LPEP tomorrow...

And yet... I'm still bloging about useless stuff... O_o

CAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN'T SLEEP! Sirang sira na body clock ko... Para akong na-jet lag... hahaha! XD

Hay naku, I'll probably delete this later... XD This has got to be my pinaka-sabaw post this year... XD

Well, I guess, this has got to be better than the one I dedicated for my "kuya"... which turned out incredibly MUSHY... I hope he won't be able to read that entry 'cause for sure he'll tease me again... XD

Anyway, back to Andre... (LABO) I dedicate this song for you:

(MEHGANUN???!!)

Cry (Mandy Moore)

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended so soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
Was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment that I saw you cry
cry..moment that I saw you cry

It was late in september
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
Was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....

I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one would find...

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
Was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

Baby cry!
The moment I saw you cry
Oh no, no, no
i think i saw you cry

I wanted to know you!
I wanted to hold you!

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Okay alam na. :P

P.S.

Hindi lang ako yung "inlababo" ngayon. Pati rin ilan kong kaibigan but I'm too selfish and self centered now to write about them. But I'm happy for them. :)

PAK sisters

WALA LANG. MISS KO NA KASI KAYO. SEE YOU SOON!

For my KUYA

I LOVE MY KUYA SO MUCH!! (You know who you are)

Me and my kuya were reminiscing all afternoon about the past and how happy and carefree we were. Our talk that afternoon made me remember instances that I have forgotten like the time when he treated me to Starbucks just because he felt like it. He would also occasionally treat me ice cream. Hahaha! We also reminisced my first ever trip to Divisoria and Quiapo because I came with him to buy stuff for his girl. :-P I also remembered the countless times I asked him to help me with my problems-- and he was always there, ready to help me.

Those little things.... *sighs* are indeed special but I failed to show my appreciation. Yes, those little things seems ordinary, but when he said that he did those things because he sees me as a bunsong kapatid, it made me shed to tears. Hehehe drama ba?

In my entire life, I felt that I was never appreciated by my real (biological) siblings so that moment when he said that he sees me as a bunsong kapatid was the first time, my entire life that I felt that someone really appreciates and treats me as one.

It really feels great! I LOVE YOU! You will always be my makulit na kuya and I will continue to be your bratty and spoiled bunsong kapatid. (Though I will TRY to be a bit nicer to you now :P) Nothing can change that! PLEASE always remember that. God Bless! You know I'm praying for you. Stay out of trouble muna please. :D

Sana pasko ulit

It's almost 6am, and yet I still couldn't sleep. I was sick the night before... Nalipasan ng gutom, most prolly... Anyway, since I wasn't able to sleep, I decided to browse (stalk) blogs of some people. *grins* I came upon the blog of kuya Joel Libo-on. (Don't ask how I stumbled upon his private blog :P) Anyway, I was always fond of reading his works so I read some of the entries of his blog. (SORRY I WAS REALLY BORED! :P) I came upon one entry that made me shed into tears. Here, I'll quote a part of it:

"Bubuksan ko pa lamang ang pinto ng Shakey's sinalubong na ako ng mga ngiti. Naintindihan ko rin yung sinasabi nilang parang pamilya ang Plaridel. Para kasi akong umuwi sa mga magugulo kong mga anak na nasobrahan sa asukal kaya labis ang kakulitan. Ayun, naabutan ko sila na nagsisitalon, nagsisisigaw, naka-pajama, ayaw pa matulog. Natapos ang christmas party ng walang aberya."

He was talking about last year's christmas party. I really MISS those times... Parang sobrang saya at perfect nga ng lahat. Sobrang close ko pa with my PAK sisters. Wala pang problema! Masaya talaga lahat! Ang tanging pino-problema ko na lamang noon ay paano ako pansinin ng aking crush. Huhuhu! Everything I worry before is NOTHING compared to what I am, together with my friends, is going through now. Haaaaayyy..

Now everyone is uber vengeful... Ang mga ngiti noon pinalitan na ng luha... Ang pagka-hyper ng lahat pinalitan ng katahimikan... Pamilya, watak-watak... PUNO na ng aberya! Simula na nga talaga ng DARK AGES... :|

Realizations on a lazy afternoon

It's 3 in the afternoon (mali 'yung oras ng blogger) and I just woke up. Hahaha pathetic right? Well, I stayed up all night playing Restaurant City (a game in Facebook) but then again, I don't think it recorded my progress 'cause I accidentally closed the window before saving. PATHETIC! HAHAHA!

Anyway, I woke up with lots of messages on my phone. I've been bailing out on a lot of people lately especially Triple A and EB. Supposedly, I was to help out during the LPEP but I chickened out to even ask my dad. It's raining hard these past few days and I don't want him to drive me to Taft because (he's getting older and older) he might go in to an accident again. He doesn't allow me to commute well because... well just because. It does not help that my dad still see me as a baby still. RAWR.

One of my text messages that I received while I was still asleep is from someone in EB asking me if my dad already allowed me to attend Mulat. I still haven't gotten around to ask my dad and the deadline was last Wednesday. I chickened out. I really want to go. Isang beses lang ako magiging EB, make as well use of it. Pray for me that my dad allows me to go. Grabe, I begged and cried for him to allow me in Year End and Gawad Efren Abueg. HAHAHA! Dyosko, do I have to do that every time I make paalam? If so, then I must get my acting skills ready. HAHAHA!

Another agenda that I MUST attend is Aiyu's engrande debut. Supposedly, I am part of her cottilion, but seeing that my father hasn't allowed me yet, I think I might turn down Aiyu's offer-- which is so sad because it has always been my dream to dance in a cotillion (sarcastic). HAHAHA! Kidding Aiyu!! Even if I DON'T like dancing, you know I'll do anything for you and besides, it SOUNDS SAFE. You said it would be easy, so I said I'd do it. I'm just hoping my father would come to his senses and allow me to go-- even if the venue is in Quezon City (far, far away from my house). I AM PRAYING for my father to allow me to go-- a lot of the people I miss will go there! HUHUHU! Kahit hindi na ako cotillion or any part of the debut, basta lang makasama ako. HUHUHU! LABYOOAIYU!!!

It really is hard to have a father like mine. My older sisters also went through the same stage like me. But I think I've gotten the worse of it because now my dad is always home unlike my sister day's wherein he's still working. I love my dad (especially if he buys me stuff) BUT WHEN WILL THIS END????? Parang nakatali ako sa rehas!!! Okay exagge... I am hoping before I turn 20, he'll loose up a bit and give me some independence. HAAAAAAAYYYY!!!!! If not, I'll run away from home, go to Spain, marry a hot Spaniard and never come back. HAHAHAHA! Kidding!

I will go now 'cause I'm sooooo hungry. I am also wondering why my mother did not wake me up. Hahahaha! I need to go out now and show to her that I'm awake. Mukhang lecture nanaman ito. She insists that my pimples is due to me not sleeping early. Hahahaha! "Ano ka ba mom, madami akong ginagawa!" Hahaha! Bakit ba? Marami naman talaga akong ginagawa sa Restaurant City! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! :-)

Isa lang masasabi ko sayo:

WEH!!!

Sige pagpatuloy mo lang yan. Diyan ka magaling eh. Pero, nakakasawa na kei. Gets na namin pinapahiwatig mo. :-P Dyosko.. hahaha!

Sige na, nanalo ka na. GO FLATTER yourself. :-P Pero alam kong alam mo DEEP INSIDE...... Well alam mo na 'yun... *wink* 'Pag 'di mo gets, PM mo lang ako... Kung nahihiya ka, magparinig ka nalang ulit. ;-)

I am IRON MANdeeeeh

May 7, 2008... I never really thought that watching a movie would be such an awkward experience. Though I'm glad that we at least tried-- it was completely evident that we FAILED. Hahaha! Too bad we weren't given a chance to try again and see if it works out the second time. Destiny was not with us. Hahaha! DRAMA! :))

I would like to thank PENNY for reminding me of this awkward and painful day I had last year. Tsktsktsk.

Here is a video Happyslip made that I think resembles to what happened exactly last year. HAHAHA PATHETIC RIGHT? BATA PA AKO NUN! :))

PUTANGINAFUCKYOUGAGOBOBOPUTANGINAFUCKYOUGAGOBOBO........... Siguro marami naman nakapansin sa biglaang pagbabago sa aking mga pananalita. Hindi naman ako ganito. Ngunit dahil sa sama ng loob na aking naramdaman, hindi ko talaga mapigilan ang aking sarili. Tandaan niyo lang. I MEAN EVERYTHING I SAY. NO REGRETS.

Sa ngayon nagpapasalamat ako sa aking mga kaibigan. Kung hindi dahil sakanila, hindi ko kakayanin ang mga nangyayari ngayon. Hinding-hindi ko kayo bibiguin. Batukan niyo lang ako. :)

Rawr

"Stop talking to me like that. Stop talking to everyone like that. I may be the cook's daughter and my father may not be rich, but I'm a much better person than someone who feels good about herself because she makes everyone else feel bad. And I'll take that anyway."

(quote from Camp Rock)