Magkano mo nakuha ang iyong 4.0?

"Hindi naman required pero kailangang bumili..."

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Ang saya-saya! Freecut nanaman klase namin sa Lunes! Nagbayad lang ako ng Php250, freecut na! Hmmm... Kung Php1000 kaya ibigay ko, 4.0 na kaya ako sa course card?

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Gaaaahhh... Nakakadismaya...

Panimula

(Photo taken at Calatagan, Batangas some time last year)

Matapos ang ilang buwan, naisipan kong palitan ang layout ng blog ko na 'to. Hindi naman ako nagsawa sa luma kong layout. Sa katunayan, napilitan lamang ako sapagkat, ayon sa Blogger, kinakailangang palitan ang layout upang ma-upgrade ang aking blog. Ako'y nagdalawang-isip kung i-u-upgrade ko nga ba ito o iiwan ko na lamang ganoon. Matagal kong pinag-isipan ito at nanaig ang aking pagnanais ng pagbabago para sa aking blog.

Ngayon, hindi naman ako nagsisi sa aking desisyon. Marami pala akong features na hindi nagamit at na-maximize sa luma kong layout. Aaminin ko, mas maganda pa rin ang desenyo ng luma kong layout ngunit sayang naman ang ilang features tulad ng comment at follow option, na sa tingin ko, mas mahalaga. Hahaha!

Sabay sa aking pagpapalit ng layout, naisipan ko ring burahin ang ilan sa aking mga post. Hindi naman sa kinakahiya ko ang mga ito, ngunit may ilang mga bagay na kailangan nang itanim at huwag na lamang balikan. Oo, marami tayong natutunan sa ating mga pagkakamali sa ating nakaraan ngunit hindi naman natin kinakailangang balik-balikan ang mga 'to.

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"One reason God created time was so that there would be a place to bury the failures of the past."

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Heto nanaman, simula ng bagong kabanata ng aking buhay.

Si Robin.

Si BATMAN ang tagapagligtas.

Si BATMAN ang pinakamagaling.

Si BATMAN ang pinakamatalino.

Si BATMAN ang HERO!

Si BATMAN ang BIDA!

Kung sobrang galing ni BATMAN, para saan pa si ROBIN?

Ayon sa aking propesor, kaya lamang ginawa si Robin ay para mayroong makokompara kay Batman. Hindi naman natin masasabing "pinaka" si Batman kung hindi ito maihahambing sa mas "mababa" sa kanya. Kapag magkakamali si Robin, nandiyan si Batman upang tamain ito. At dahil diyan, may basehan na sa pagsabi sa pagiging "pinaka" ni Batman sapagkat natalo na nito si Robin.

Kung si Robin papalitan at gagawing Superman, mapapansin pa rin kaya si Batman? Malamang hindi na. Pantay na lamang ang tingin sa dalawa at wala nang "mas" o "pinaka". Ordinaryo na lamang silang dalawa. Ngunit kung ihahambing naman kay Robin, parang MAS nagiging bida pa nga si Batman.

Sa kabilang banda, kung si Robin ang ihahambing kay Batman, masasabing sobrang hina at baba niya. Mababalewala ang kagalingan ni Robin sapagkat naikumpara na siya sa kilala nang magaling.

Naawa ako kay Robin sapagkat mababa ang tingin ng mga tao sakanya. Kahit gaano siya kagaling, hindi pa rin ito makikita sapagkat si Batman pa rin ang bida at inaasahang maging "MAS" o "PINAKA".

Haayy... May karapatan din naman si Robin maging bida...

Haayy ganyan lang talaga siguro ang buhay. Minsan, may mga kapatid o kaibigan tayong nabibida o nagpapabida palagi. Na kahit ilang beses mo nang pilitin maging bida sa sarili mong buhay, pilit pa rin nilang gawin kang sidekick na lamang. Minsan naman, sinasadya mo nang magpatalo upang maging masaya si Batman... pero... *sighs* nakakapagod na rin ito.

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Ako ba ang iyong Robin? Ginagamit mo lamang ba ako upang maging "MAS" at "PINAKA" ka o guni-guni ko lamang ito?

Wala lang... Ingat-ingat lang sa mga pinagsasabi. Baka hindi mo na namamalayan pero lumalaki na masyado ang ulo mo. Masaya ako sapagkat masaya ka ngayon dahil marami kang kaibigang nagmamahal sayo o dahil marami kang nakukuhang oportunidad na alam nating lahat na hinding-hindi ko makukuha. Kaibigan, masaya ako para sayo at alam kong gusto mo rin akong maging masaya ngunit isipin mo na magka-iba tayong tao. Magka-iba ang ating mga hilig. Oo dati, parehas ang ating mga hilig ngunit tumanda na tayo. Nagbago ka na at gayundin, nagbago na rin ako. Ang tanging hiling ko lamang ay maging masaya ka na lamang para sa akin at sana tanggapin mo ang mga desisyon ko sa aking buhay. Hindi nakakatulong ang pagpintas o pagbibiro sa mga bagay na mahalaga sa akin ngayon. Ayun lang.

Bato-bato sa langit, ang tamaan 'wag magalit... :)

Reality check lang po... Hihihi... :P

Is this a sign?

As I was browsing through my dear friend's Tumblr account, I stumbled upon this picture. Then I remembered something that has been haunting me for weeks! By the end of the term, I need to make a decision to which path I would take for my near future. I actually have three options:

OPTION 1: A GAME WITH NO RULES

Downsides:

1. This is a game with no rules. It would be like gambling. I only have a 30% or less chance of winning.

2. I would be burning bridges with the people/ person I love.

3. My acads will suffer.

Why I should take this path?

Though I would be risking a lot if I go on, I still want to try and see if I really got what it takes to win this game. If I win, I would be given a chance to lead a group. Actually, I'm not sure if I WANT the responsibility. But whenever I think about having SOMEONE ELSE take the chance, I know I will regret not taking it myself. I have a lot of experiences in this field and I know/HOPE I can make a difference. THIS WOULD BE SOMETHING THAT I WILL DO FOR MYSELF and I know I will learn a lot from the experience.

OPTION 2: SURE WIN

Downsides:

1. I am not familiar with the work.

2. I feel like I don't deserve this.

3. My acads will suffer.

4. I am not interested with this kind of work.

Why I should take this path?

"Sure win!" Though I have 95% or more chance of winning this game, I am still unsure if I can handle the prize. I am not familiar with the work but I can learn. Taking this option will also make my loved ones happy and proud of me. I just hope I will be happy with this path.

OPTION 3: ACADS MODE

Downsides:

1. BORING

2. LONELY

3. Unfulfilling

Why I should take this path?

My acads will not suffer. 'Yun lang. :|

I am having a hard time choosing from all three of my options. This has been haunting me for weeks because I really need to make a decision by the end of the term.

This is a 90210 rant (Yes, I know it's 4am.. I can't sleep.. This is all I could think about...) *sighs*

(Only those who watch the show can understand this post...)

Silver has always been my favorite character. As the show progresses, we can see the changes in her. She had become mature. Despite all the hatred she felt from her past, she still strives to become the best person. At times, she still feels scared or unsure, but will eventually get over it because of the support from her sister, friends and her boyfriend.

I also admire Dixon, Silver's boyfriend, for staying with Silver and sticking up for her especially in times when she really needed support. Silver can be difficult sometimes, but Dixon never left her side and gives her everything that's best.

Both Dixon and Silver sometimes encounter problems that affect their relationship. An example of this is in season 1, episode 23, during their Prom.

Despite Silver's strong belief against Prom, she still went because she promised Dixon that she'd go with him. She knows that Dixon badly wants to go and she doesn't want to disappoint her boyfriend so she agreed to go. On the day itself, they both tried their best to enjoy. Somehow, Dixon won Prom King and Silver won Prom Queen. Dixon was ecstatic that he won but as for Silver, she was at first very surprise. As she went up the stage to claim her prize, she remembers something. She remembered how much she hated prom. She remembered her strong belief against it. So, she stood in front of everyone and told all of them how she felt and declined her award. She said something about not wanting to be a Monkey Prom Addict Zombie (Something like that... I forgot what she said exactly).

Silver's confidence to fight for what she believed in even if it means going against the majority is very admirable. But when she said her speech, she had hurt someone-- Dixon. Though it was not the intention, Silver offended Dixon. Dixon felt that the speech was against him.

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I wasn't able to finish watching the episode so I don't really know what happened with Silver and Dixon in the end. All I know is that "Dixon" is so hurt with what "Silver" had said. Now, "he" doesn't know how to react and prefers to "not deal with it for now..." I know that "Dixon" is scared of losing "Silver" but now is not a good time to fix things.

New Term Resolution

Nakakalungkot isipin sapagkat nakakuha ako ng mga mabababang marka para sa terminong ito. Para sa susunod na termino, determinado akong mabawi ang kalunos-lunos na sinapit ng aking acads.

Ito ay ilan sa aking nilistang gabay upang makakuha ng matataas na marka sa susunod na termino:

1. Umuwi ng maaga. Bawal nang tumambay sa school. Pagkatapos ng klase, diretso bahay.

2. Matulog ng maaga. Tapusin ka-agad ang lahat ng trabaho upang hindi abutin ng madaling araw.

3. Bawal nang maglaro ng Pet Society, Restaurant City o Country Stories. Maaaring mag-plurk, pero pang-maintain lang ng karma.

4. Iwasan ang pagpasok tuwing Biyernes. Kung kaya gawin ang trabaho sa bahay, 'wag na pumasok. Aksaya lamang iyon ng gas at effort. Friday is homework/ drafts time.

5. "Idle time is never a good time." I should keep myself busy. No slacking off allowed!

Well, 'yun pa lang naman naiisip ako. Basta ACADS ang number 1 priority ko. Bahala na social life ko. As for my friends, I know they will understand kahit na magpapaka-cave man muna ako ng isang termino.

I also promise to do my *job*. Sisimulan ko na nga ngayong bakasyon para hindi na abala pagdating ng pasukin. *wink*

'Yun lang naman. Bawal na magka-love life!!! Sobrang sagabal 'yun sa acads at org!!! LOVE YOURSELF 1ST BEFORE LOVING OTHERS! :D TIIS-TIIS LANG. SANA HINDI MA-TEMPT! :) KUNG SIYA TALAGA ANG PARA SA AKIN, MAGHIHINTAY SIYA HANGGANG SA TINGIN KO STABLE NA AKO. :P

'Yun lang. Sana matupad ko lahat 'yan. :S

Paalam sweetdyman!

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sweetdyman hates negative feelings

sweetdyman loves the idea of deleting her Plurk account

After 8 months, 938 plurks, 1228 profile views and 9717 plurk replies, I will finally say goodbye to my sweetdyman account in Plurk. I do not have the heart to delete my account because it has so much memories in it so I've decided to just freeze my 91.83 karma for it to be preserved.

As much as I love plurking, I felt the need to stop. I have come to realize that it is rather disruptive of relationships due to miscommunication and misunderstanding.

Dapat mga ka-plurk mo lang ay 'yung mga TUNAY na nakaka-intindi at nakakakilala sayo. Mahirap na talaga lalo na ngayon. TSKTSK...

Kakainin na ako ng deadline!

Nandito ako ngayon sa University Library. Inaasikaso ko ngayon ang aking drafts. Kakatapos ko lamang i-revise ang isa kong draft at ngayon, tinatamad na ako simulan ang isa ko pa. Haayy... Dapat noong isang linggo ko pa ito ipinasa ngunit masyado akong nag-procrastinate. Ayan tuloy, kakainin na ako ng deadline!

Ewan ko ba. Ngayong buwan lamang ako nagkaganito. Aminado ako, ilang beses na akong late magpasa ng draft noon pero ngayon siguro exagge na..... kasi bukas na ang deadline ko pero hindi pa rin ako nakakaramdam ng panic! Ahahaha! Ewan ko talaga. Nawalan na ako ng gana. Kagaya ngayon, sa halip na tapusin ko ang isa ko pang draft, mas pinili ko pang magsulat sa walang kwentang blog na ito. Haayy...